A woman gazing out of window

It seems like I have spent many seasons of my life in waiting. While all of my friends were getting married, I was still wrestling with broken relationships and dreaming of my Mr. Wonderful. I waited for what seemed like forever for the man I now call my husband. We married later in life and both had demanding careers, but the timing for our relationship was absolutely perfect.

You would think that after a while “waiting” would get easier, but it surely doesn’t. Sometimes, I can’t even fathom why one would have to wait so long for something so life changing. The only true explanation is that God knows the right timing for everything in your life, even though that is so hard to understand.

After losing our first child due to miscarriage, I have struggled with another season of waiting-the waiting for a baby.  The enemy has tried to harden my spirit and put doubts and distrust in my head, making me question God’s plan, and my own abilities to bear a child. More times than not, I have shed tears of utter devastation from the emptiness my heart has endured since losing a baby and “waiting” so long for another positive pregnancy test.

When you’re in a season of waiting, it really tests your faith. The season of waiting for a baby is hard on your self-confidence and especially your marriage, but God is so much bigger than every season of waiting. In Romans 12:12 we are reminded to “Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer.” God hears the desires of our hearts in prayer. He also knows the plans for our future. He shifts paths and puts things precisely in place so a plan even more amazing than our own can come to fruition. He does ask us to be patient and trust him in the process.

Tragedy, such as pregnancy and infant loss, is not God’s fault, but I know he promises to bring something beautiful from the pain and ashes.  He is the heavenly father and would never wish harm to his children. During some of our most tragic times, he is still there holding and carrying us through it. He never leaves our side, although we might think he has forgotten about us. Psalm 147:3 states that “He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” God never leaves us, most especially in our most tragic times.  He is there waiting to lift us up and he will hold us through the pain and devastation that we are suffering from. God counts every single sorrowful tear. He wants to create purpose from our pain and turn our waiting season into a glorious moment of triumph.

It’s in the waiting that we learn to rely and trust in God more. We learn that the season of waiting is not punishment, but rather a reward with something better than we could have imagined. If you are in a season of waiting, I encourage you to hold on to your faith. Stay steadfast in God’s word and the scripture. He will carry you through and bring you to the other side of the wait, if you trust and allow him to do so.

© Strength 4 Spouses LLC, 2019.

Wendi, her husband, and her dog

After suffering through pregnancy loss, the journey to healing, two years of waiting and growing in their faith, Wendi and her husband are now expecting a miracle baby of their own. They give all the glory to God for this beautiful blessing. Wendi has been an Army wife for three years and part of military life for five years. She has spent the last nine years as an adult educator, has a Master of Arts in Educational Media, and a Bachelor of Science degree in Early Childhood Education. Currently, she is a blogger, freelance writer, Aqua Cycling Instructor, and avid volunteer. In her free time, you can usually find her volunteering at USO’s story time, reading the news on Army Wife Network’s Talk radio, outdoors in the garden, running, cooking up a new recipe, or playing fetch with their adorable Beagle, Daizi. Wendi is extremely passionate about helping others find their inner strength by sharing her experiences, insight, resources, and inspirational stories on her blog Strength4Spouses.